its has been one of a better ordinary day

Hi readers. I have been on bed since 11am and its... Close to 2am now! And I cant sleep, as I was typing this now I kept yawning and even teared! /: How irony right? And, I saw lighting!!!!!! :(

So yeah.. What I suddenly miss right now is being 'chased' by my darling.
Hehe though im pretty sure that he's still sweet and loving me. Haha! :p
He has been a really nice boyfriend. Ever since he met me, he started treating me really nice. Haha I dont mind having someone who treats me nice hmmm.

I guessed human beings are really weird creatures or rather I am.
A year ago, I hated guys. I hated being treated so nicely by guys. Hated really so much that I would usually pisses the shit outta them who is being nice to me for I felt that there are some motive or smthg. All these were caused by the phobia of my past relationship. Hurt and hurting and hurted. I do not welcome guys very much in my life during my recovery period. I had the mindset that all men are jerk, none is good. I hated promises, and I hated the word love, also hated honeyed sweet words so much. I showed attitude to those who treated me nicely at times. But now I have to admit that they are nice to me, taking in my critisism and trying to consolse me and telling me to give love a chance.

Never have I wanted to believe in love anymore, till Bernard comes along in my life.
I have no idea at all why would this particular guy cares so much about me, all of a sudden, so randomly. We merely spoke less than a few sentence. And seen each other less than a couple of times.

But he was the one who made me believe on him, in the words that he said. In the actions he showed to me. I have seen it there, darling. My awesomely amazing one... Against all odd. You were that chosen one! :)
I miss You.

Pinch... Pinch... ^-^